I was a big loser in grade school. It happens to a lot of people. Fine. I've dealt with it. I had some self esteem issues coming out of it, but I've gotten over that.

I still have a mental block when I run into the people who used to bully me or just the "cool kids" from grade school. And I know its a pavlovian response. But the people I run into have absolutely no problems chatting with me. They aren't cocky, or condescending. They're just hanging out and catching up with people.

Am I alone on this? The "still feeling like you have to prove yourself to people who you haven't seen in years and don't care about anymore because they are from a decade ago, but you still feel less then them" thing.

I'm getting better, I'm not quite as withdrawn with these people as when I first ran into them, but I'm still far more self conscious around them then anyone else I meet. This is just a Pat check that I'm not a complete nutter/hose beast or what have you.

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- posted by Pat @ 3:18 AM